The books are gone. So are most of the cloths. Basic make up stuff remains, as if to remind me of a feminine existence in my life. Do I really want it? I suppose so. Something is not right when I am alone. I won’t call it loneliness but a sense of aimlessness. On a normal day, I’d be in deep sleep by now, though I’d only have a part of my bed. But here I lay awake, trying to type out a literary masterpiece.

What a joke

I try to read a P.G. Wodehouse book – not that it interests me. I just want to doze off.

Am I the only one feeling this way? I am pretty sure others are snoring peacefully; happily ignorant of the demons I am fighting this time of the night.

Why everything seem so distant right now when I remember the closeness distinctly. I vividly remember the time when everything seemed possible – everything was there right at the palm of my hand. I know I was not strong enough to grasp it. Am I stronger now?

I guess not

Everyday there’s a race to get ahead of the game…at least by a couple of hundred bucks. No matter how many rosy dreams the payday brings, every month end is the same story of “Please lend me a couple of hundreds”. I am getting sick of it myself. I wonder it affect people around me.

How can I expect you to stay with me when all I do is take, take and take. Maybe someday, I’ll give back everything – all things good and bad you have given me. Maybe then we will be in equal terms. Till then I guess I’ll have to be a wimp…like I’ve been for most of my past life.

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Here I am today, willing to make a whole new beginning once again. I wonder how many times does someone actually wipe his slate clean and start afresh. I have done it for the third time in the last two year. Hope this time it is worth it and not just another misadventure.

If things go well, I should be writing more often. Hope to see you guys soon.

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Doing more than what your job responsibilities are or how much I am paid for

Working hard to be someone I don’t really want to

Going out of your way to please others and being told that I am overdoing it

Doing a thankless job of a maid…free of cost

Making compromises on things that used to be my life a few years back

Trying to make sense of a grown up life – something that was so fascinating in childhood

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As 2007 comes to an end

1) Where did you begin 2007?
Playing drums in my house party

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)?
Nope

4) How did you earn your money?
umm working

5) Did you have to go to the hospital?
Yes…for a stupid check-up

6) Did you have any encounters with the police?
Yeah…quite a few times. Couple of times while on late night dates and once when one of my close pal passed away

7) Where did you go on the holidays?
Nowhere…stayed back home and chilled!

8) What did you purchase that was over Rs 1000?
Yeah right....

9) Did you know anybody who got married?
Yes…Quite a few friends jumped into the bandwagon. Sam, Priyanku, Partha…and so on

10) Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes. My close friend Bijoy

12) Did you move anywhere?
Yes…and guess what? I am moving again one of these days

14) What concerts/shows did you go to?
Iron Maiden in Bangalore, Sepultura in Delhi…had to miss Scorpions :(

15) Are you registered to vote?
No, I really need to get that done

16) Who did you want to win Big Boss?
Didn't watch it

17) Where do you live now?
Malviya Nagar

18) Describe your birthday?
Going through a messy break-up

19) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007?
So many things…sobering up for starters

20) What has been your favorite moment?
ummm…during June and July

21) What's something you learned about yourself?
I've discovered my softer side!

22.) What was your best month?
July

23.) What music will you remember 2007 by?
'Life in a Metro' soundtrack

25) Who has been your best drinking buddy?
I don't drink

26) Made new friends?
Yes. Quite a few

27) New best friend?
Ann

28) Favorite Night out?
India Gate (so uncool – I know)

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